About Me
- Cynthia
- I am a single native Californian who is looking for love in all the wrong places! Fun-loving, soul-searching, all around crazy.......that's me! :) I believe in the inherent goodness of people, the power of music to restore the soul and the healing properties of a Vente nonfat latte! I believe there is nothing better than a gourgous sunrise, making people laugh, the unconditional love of a dog and a Luc Robitaille game-winning goal with 30-seconds left on the clock! I believe in God, my friends and the spirit of Rock and Roll!
My Inspiration
now I try to be amused.
~~Elvis Costello
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Last night after a day of listening to podcasts of pundits arguing about health care, it dawned on me: if I quit my job and go to school full-time, I will be in the bracket of those without health care! I am too old for that! Then my thoughts progressed to other things: I work mid-afternoon to evening which makes going to school in the morning a breeze (the class selection is much better during the day) AND I work at a job that gives me 5k a year educational reimbursment that ISN'T tied into my current position (meaning they will pay for any major...not just what's related to your job) Ok...why was I thinking about leaving?
I am so relieved! The solution to my current worries was right in front of me all along: stay put! Keep my current job! I know the ropes, won't have to learn a new job on top of going to school and I have my benefits, health care and other wise. This way, I can leave community college debt free, with my RN and hit the ground making money instead of spending the first couple of years paying it back!
I feel much better that I know where I am going to school and who is going to pay for it! I don't have to worry about where to find financing or how I am going to live. I'll save all that for when I go back to get my advanced degrees. Right now, the plan is in place and all the details are starting to come together! This feels good! Like this post? Please share it, bookmark it or leave a comment.
Last night after a day of listening to podcasts of pundits arguing about health care, it dawned on me: if I quit my job and go to school full-time, I will be in the bracket of those without health care! I am too old for that! Then my thoughts progressed to other things: I work mid-afternoon to evening which makes going to school in the morning a breeze (the class selection is much better during the day) AND I work at a job that gives me 5k a year educational reimbursment that ISN'T tied into my current position (meaning they will pay for any major...not just what's related to your job) Ok...why was I thinking about leaving?
I am so relieved! The solution to my current worries was right in front of me all along: stay put! Keep my current job! I know the ropes, won't have to learn a new job on top of going to school and I have my benefits, health care and other wise. This way, I can leave community college debt free, with my RN and hit the ground making money instead of spending the first couple of years paying it back!
I feel much better that I know where I am going to school and who is going to pay for it! I don't have to worry about where to find financing or how I am going to live. I'll save all that for when I go back to get my advanced degrees. Right now, the plan is in place and all the details are starting to come together! This feels good! Like this post? Please share it, bookmark it or leave a comment.
Special Olympics was born out of a family who had a member with special needs in an era where the mentally challenged were treated as pariah. Eunice's sister, Rosemarie, was one of them and was given a labotomy as a form a treatment. Eunice saw this destroy her sister and vowed to not let it happen to others. And the Special Olympics was born. Special Olympics gives those with special needs a place to shine! The athletes are made to feel like nothing less than what they truly are: humans who have the right to live with dignity! As a volunteer, your life can't help but be changed forever by being around people with such inherantly loving spirits!
It is a wondeful legacy born out of family tragedy! If Eunice Shriver can take tragedy and turn it into an amazing organization that will forever benefit millions, what can we do with our lives? What will your legacy be? Like this post? Please share it, bookmark it or leave a comment.
Special Olympics was born out of a family who had a member with special needs in an era where the mentally challenged were treated as pariah. Eunice's sister, Rosemarie, was one of them and was given a labotomy as a form a treatment. Eunice saw this destroy her sister and vowed to not let it happen to others. And the Special Olympics was born. Special Olympics gives those with special needs a place to shine! The athletes are made to feel like nothing less than what they truly are: humans who have the right to live with dignity! As a volunteer, your life can't help but be changed forever by being around people with such inherantly loving spirits!
It is a wondeful legacy born out of family tragedy! If Eunice Shriver can take tragedy and turn it into an amazing organization that will forever benefit millions, what can we do with our lives? What will your legacy be? Like this post? Please share it, bookmark it or leave a comment.
That ends tonight! If my soul-sucking full time job weren't reason enough to stay up until dawn looking for ways to finance my education, God sent me a message in the form of a Joel Osteen podcast. The message was titled "Stay Open To The Possibility Of Something New". This message spoke to every doubt I have about weather or not nursing is for me! I may have my doubts but God dosent and that podcast was on my IPod to let me know that His dreams are bigger than mine.
So tonight, no virtual farming or reading up on Bradley Cooper and his "date" of the minute. I'm going home to find out how to finance my future. Anything that will get me out of the 9-5 grind is good!
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That ends tonight! If my soul-sucking full time job weren't reason enough to stay up until dawn looking for ways to finance my education, God sent me a message in the form of a Joel Osteen podcast. The message was titled "Stay Open To The Possibility Of Something New". This message spoke to every doubt I have about weather or not nursing is for me! I may have my doubts but God dosent and that podcast was on my IPod to let me know that His dreams are bigger than mine.
So tonight, no virtual farming or reading up on Bradley Cooper and his "date" of the minute. I'm going home to find out how to finance my future. Anything that will get me out of the 9-5 grind is good!
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Case in point: today! I had it all planned out. I was going to get coffee, go grocery shopping, and then hang out in the backyard with my boys and "The Time Travelers Wife". Lovely and relaxing, right? Then I saw Shan's text: John Mayer...Troubador...tonight! Wrist bands handed out at noon!
That, my friends, is why I have an empty fridge, an unread book on the night stand and I am at The Troubadour waiting for John Mayer to play about 5 feet in front of me! It is because when I get an email saying one of favorite musicians is playing a show in a club in West Hollywood....a small club...I am free to pick up and go!
I have always been impulsive and have done whatever sounds good at the time! However, now these decisions are going to have consequences that effect my future! I'm going to school to study for that career that will eventually let me retire and travel the rest of my life! I can't blow off a paper, test or final to go clubbing....even if its Mayer! Gone is the freedom to pick up and go to New York to see Bon Jovi or being able to waste time hanging out in bars hearing my friends bar band launch into the version of "Sweet Home Alabama" that they are sure will change music as we know it! All spare time from September until 4 years from now will be study time!
I worry about that potential loss of freedom but I am comforted by the knowledge that is temporary. I will keep my eyes on the prize. The prize is turning 70 and not being encumbered by the restrictions of working or restrictions of not having money to do anything. If I do this career change right, I'll retire with the rest of my life to do what I want and the money make it happen.
I haven't lost freedom, I am just putting it on hold for awhile! It is cool I am free to make that decision.
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Case in point: today! I had it all planned out. I was going to get coffee, go grocery shopping, and then hang out in the backyard with my boys and "The Time Travelers Wife". Lovely and relaxing, right? Then I saw Shan's text: John Mayer...Troubador...tonight! Wrist bands handed out at noon!
That, my friends, is why I have an empty fridge, an unread book on the night stand and I am at The Troubadour waiting for John Mayer to play about 5 feet in front of me! It is because when I get an email saying one of favorite musicians is playing a show in a club in West Hollywood....a small club...I am free to pick up and go!
I have always been impulsive and have done whatever sounds good at the time! However, now these decisions are going to have consequences that effect my future! I'm going to school to study for that career that will eventually let me retire and travel the rest of my life! I can't blow off a paper, test or final to go clubbing....even if its Mayer! Gone is the freedom to pick up and go to New York to see Bon Jovi or being able to waste time hanging out in bars hearing my friends bar band launch into the version of "Sweet Home Alabama" that they are sure will change music as we know it! All spare time from September until 4 years from now will be study time!
I worry about that potential loss of freedom but I am comforted by the knowledge that is temporary. I will keep my eyes on the prize. The prize is turning 70 and not being encumbered by the restrictions of working or restrictions of not having money to do anything. If I do this career change right, I'll retire with the rest of my life to do what I want and the money make it happen.
I haven't lost freedom, I am just putting it on hold for awhile! It is cool I am free to make that decision.
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Ha...you are thinking that one is the consequence of the other. Au contraire my friends! The wine was brought home from a recent wine tasting weekend and "The Hangover" is the blockbuster movie of the summer! I am discovering the restorative properties of both!
The movie came at the right time for me because in the midst of plotting out the rest of my life, once in awhile I need to escape. Where better than to a movie that is hysterically funny, well written and not only gives you plenty of shots of Bradley Cooper's amazingly gourgous blue eyes but a few of him shirtless as well! Yowza! Can I just drop out of society for a night and go on a binge with Bradley??
I'll return to reality shortly.... but for right now...me, Bradley...Vegas...heaven! This glass of wine I am drinking and my fantasy life beats reality any day! ;) Like this post? Please share it, bookmark it or leave a comment.
Ha...you are thinking that one is the consequence of the other. Au contraire my friends! The wine was brought home from a recent wine tasting weekend and "The Hangover" is the blockbuster movie of the summer! I am discovering the restorative properties of both!
The movie came at the right time for me because in the midst of plotting out the rest of my life, once in awhile I need to escape. Where better than to a movie that is hysterically funny, well written and not only gives you plenty of shots of Bradley Cooper's amazingly gourgous blue eyes but a few of him shirtless as well! Yowza! Can I just drop out of society for a night and go on a binge with Bradley??
I'll return to reality shortly.... but for right now...me, Bradley...Vegas...heaven! This glass of wine I am drinking and my fantasy life beats reality any day! ;) Like this post? Please share it, bookmark it or leave a comment.
I was researching financing nursing school and came across information about a program that will finance your education if you commit to working 1-4 years in an under served area when you get out. That just screams prisons and ghettos but I thought I would take a look at the list to confirm.
There it was! Top of the list! God's way of saying "you go girl"! Santa Catalina Island....one of my most favorite places on the planet!!! I get can get my education financed by working at the place I vacation at every year?! How can a beautiful island paradise be under served?
I don't know but I do plan to investigate further! God is good! :)
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I was researching financing nursing school and came across information about a program that will finance your education if you commit to working 1-4 years in an under served area when you get out. That just screams prisons and ghettos but I thought I would take a look at the list to confirm.
There it was! Top of the list! God's way of saying "you go girl"! Santa Catalina Island....one of my most favorite places on the planet!!! I get can get my education financed by working at the place I vacation at every year?! How can a beautiful island paradise be under served?
I don't know but I do plan to investigate further! God is good! :)
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This is my third go around in customer service and I hate it just as much as I ever did. What made me think taking this job was a good idea? Oh yeah, I was unemployed at the time! I know a job right now is a good thing its just that I am tired of existing to listen to people whine and complain about their health plan. That is what the press is telling people, right? Health Insurance is the evil one! We are just out to screw the members. Due to the abundance of garbage in the media about how bad health care is, they are going over every claim explanation and calling to complain, question and otherwise just drive me nuts!
Then we have corporate politics or as I like to call it, life in the sandbox. It's a life of catty gossip and everyone climbing over you to advance their own agenda! They form alliances and work to get you kicked off the island….if you don't submarine them and kick them off first! Just like grade school when you and your bff stood in the corner to laugh at the kids you didn't like! Corporations like you to think the culture is that we all work for the good of the company and are all in this together! Give me a break! Ill believe that when it shows up on my paycheck!
The irony of a blog complaining about people complaining isn't lost on me but after 8 months of this, I am really ready to check out! Go be a student and then start a new career. Nursing won't be easy but at least the patients have something to complain about!
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This is my third go around in customer service and I hate it just as much as I ever did. What made me think taking this job was a good idea? Oh yeah, I was unemployed at the time! I know a job right now is a good thing its just that I am tired of existing to listen to people whine and complain about their health plan. That is what the press is telling people, right? Health Insurance is the evil one! We are just out to screw the members. Due to the abundance of garbage in the media about how bad health care is, they are going over every claim explanation and calling to complain, question and otherwise just drive me nuts!
Then we have corporate politics or as I like to call it, life in the sandbox. It's a life of catty gossip and everyone climbing over you to advance their own agenda! They form alliances and work to get you kicked off the island….if you don't submarine them and kick them off first! Just like grade school when you and your bff stood in the corner to laugh at the kids you didn't like! Corporations like you to think the culture is that we all work for the good of the company and are all in this together! Give me a break! Ill believe that when it shows up on my paycheck!
The irony of a blog complaining about people complaining isn't lost on me but after 8 months of this, I am really ready to check out! Go be a student and then start a new career. Nursing won't be easy but at least the patients have something to complain about!
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Today I figured it out. I am happy because I know I am not destined to be permanently broke, single or in a job I am not wild about. I am headed for some hard work and lean days money wise but they are only steps on the journey to better things. The hope of a better day makes all the craziness of the current mess I am in melt away. Hope is a unique thing! It helps us to keep our eyes on the future when the present is too crazy to deal with.
Hope was delivered by my aunt in the form of a suggestion to go to nursing school. Nursing gives me a career and a way to give back by helping people. It will provide a secure career and money to make up for the last 28 years I have spent goofing around! I see retirement in my future and that gives me hope, makes me happy.
With nursing, I have hope that I won't have to work at a dead end job forever. I will have a career and the education to back it up. Hard work will have to happen but at the end of it, I know that retirement is only a relative few years away. It is then that I will blissfully canvass the country on my National Park RV tour! Me and my dog…and hopefully that funny, gorgeous doctor I picked up along the way.
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Today I figured it out. I am happy because I know I am not destined to be permanently broke, single or in a job I am not wild about. I am headed for some hard work and lean days money wise but they are only steps on the journey to better things. The hope of a better day makes all the craziness of the current mess I am in melt away. Hope is a unique thing! It helps us to keep our eyes on the future when the present is too crazy to deal with.
Hope was delivered by my aunt in the form of a suggestion to go to nursing school. Nursing gives me a career and a way to give back by helping people. It will provide a secure career and money to make up for the last 28 years I have spent goofing around! I see retirement in my future and that gives me hope, makes me happy.
With nursing, I have hope that I won't have to work at a dead end job forever. I will have a career and the education to back it up. Hard work will have to happen but at the end of it, I know that retirement is only a relative few years away. It is then that I will blissfully canvass the country on my National Park RV tour! Me and my dog…and hopefully that funny, gorgeous doctor I picked up along the way.
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Deciding to go back to school only opened up a hornets nest of questions! Where to go? Private, community, mail order? Do I go part time, full time, all the time? In state, out of state, under a bridge? Financing? That is a whole other set of crazy questions! Student loans, scholarships or sugar daddy?? So many options!
Everyone knows someone who is a nurse, is becoming a nurse, dropped out of nursing, loves it, hates it, best thing they did or the worst! Everyone has someone who has wizzed through school in record time and is now making a fortune!
I love my support system. My friends and family are the best in the world, don't get me wrong. I know they have my beat interest at heart and I love them dearly! Its just that with a decision this big, I need to take in all the advice and do what's best for me.
I need to go back to Yosemite and get some more advice of the "divine" variety. Come to think of it, I can get that anywhere!
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Deciding to go back to school only opened up a hornets nest of questions! Where to go? Private, community, mail order? Do I go part time, full time, all the time? In state, out of state, under a bridge? Financing? That is a whole other set of crazy questions! Student loans, scholarships or sugar daddy?? So many options!
Everyone knows someone who is a nurse, is becoming a nurse, dropped out of nursing, loves it, hates it, best thing they did or the worst! Everyone has someone who has wizzed through school in record time and is now making a fortune!
I love my support system. My friends and family are the best in the world, don't get me wrong. I know they have my beat interest at heart and I love them dearly! Its just that with a decision this big, I need to take in all the advice and do what's best for me.
I need to go back to Yosemite and get some more advice of the "divine" variety. Come to think of it, I can get that anywhere!
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We can do that in life as well. I am giving my life a major reboot! A much needed swift kick in the priorities! It is something I didn't even know I needed until divine intervention came in the form of my wonderful Aunt Pat!
Last month she called out of the blue and said she wanted to come and hang out! I was expecting bad news as the visit was unprecedented and unexpected! Why else would she be coming? What I received, however, was a question from her that started my future in motion: have you ever thought about going into nursing?
No I hadn't but I am tired of drifting through life and nursing makes sense. Short term education time, long term job security and big money! It was something I had never thought of but after thinking and praying about it for a month, I'm going for it! I can make up for my 44 years of playing around with my time and money by working hard for the next 20. Make a boatload of money and retire at 65!!
With a long range goal in sight, I have rebooted my life! I am off to college, this time with a clear goal in mind! I hit the ctl-alt delete on life and I am starting over! I'm taking a do-over for what I should have done at 18! It will probably be the hardest thing I've done but the most rewarding! Who knows, maybe I'll meet a funny doctor who looks like McSteamy and rescues dogs while I am at it! :)
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We can do that in life as well. I am giving my life a major reboot! A much needed swift kick in the priorities! It is something I didn't even know I needed until divine intervention came in the form of my wonderful Aunt Pat!
Last month she called out of the blue and said she wanted to come and hang out! I was expecting bad news as the visit was unprecedented and unexpected! Why else would she be coming? What I received, however, was a question from her that started my future in motion: have you ever thought about going into nursing?
No I hadn't but I am tired of drifting through life and nursing makes sense. Short term education time, long term job security and big money! It was something I had never thought of but after thinking and praying about it for a month, I'm going for it! I can make up for my 44 years of playing around with my time and money by working hard for the next 20. Make a boatload of money and retire at 65!!
With a long range goal in sight, I have rebooted my life! I am off to college, this time with a clear goal in mind! I hit the ctl-alt delete on life and I am starting over! I'm taking a do-over for what I should have done at 18! It will probably be the hardest thing I've done but the most rewarding! Who knows, maybe I'll meet a funny doctor who looks like McSteamy and rescues dogs while I am at it! :)
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That is where my life is at right now. Until now, I was wandering aimlessly through life, no goal, no idea how it was going to work out. I wasn't really contributing to the greater good, not leaving a legacy. Those fears and thoughts aren't blissful by any stretch of the imagination. Then, by an intervention that I will write more about tomorrow, I was given a push towards something that I had never thought of but makes perfect sense. It is something that I will have to sacrifice and work my ass off to obtain (two things previously not in my wheel house) but once I achieve what I am working towards, life will ultimately be blissful! I can't wait!
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That is where my life is at right now. Until now, I was wandering aimlessly through life, no goal, no idea how it was going to work out. I wasn't really contributing to the greater good, not leaving a legacy. Those fears and thoughts aren't blissful by any stretch of the imagination. Then, by an intervention that I will write more about tomorrow, I was given a push towards something that I had never thought of but makes perfect sense. It is something that I will have to sacrifice and work my ass off to obtain (two things previously not in my wheel house) but once I achieve what I am working towards, life will ultimately be blissful! I can't wait!
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California...land of dreams! I'm a native Cali girl and believe in dreams. I've always believed that following your bliss was the way to go and that if you love what you do you wouldn't work a day in your life. My problem was that the dream was that I would be the rock star/actor, marry the rock star/actor or write about the rock star/actor. The closest I've come is almost getting arrested at KLOS trying to simply meet the rock star ( A story best left for another blog).
Needless to say I'm not on the billboard charts, I haven't written for Rolling Stone and Bradley Cooper lives with his two dogs, not me! My dreams didn't quite come to fruition. So maybe bliss takes a while to get to. Is bliss something you "follow" or something you work towards?
As I sit on the south side of 40, I am coming to realise that life might have other plans for me. Plans that don't involve rock stars, actors or even writing for that matter. Can your bliss change when you get older?
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California...land of dreams! I'm a native Cali girl and believe in dreams. I've always believed that following your bliss was the way to go and that if you love what you do you wouldn't work a day in your life. My problem was that the dream was that I would be the rock star/actor, marry the rock star/actor or write about the rock star/actor. The closest I've come is almost getting arrested at KLOS trying to simply meet the rock star ( A story best left for another blog).
Needless to say I'm not on the billboard charts, I haven't written for Rolling Stone and Bradley Cooper lives with his two dogs, not me! My dreams didn't quite come to fruition. So maybe bliss takes a while to get to. Is bliss something you "follow" or something you work towards?
As I sit on the south side of 40, I am coming to realise that life might have other plans for me. Plans that don't involve rock stars, actors or even writing for that matter. Can your bliss change when you get older?
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